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Name: Melanie
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 5/7/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: TAPS Kollective..woo woo..., soccer, volleyball, reading poetry, talking, cooking, being with people who i can have a real conversation with, hanging out with Manalo's office, venting out to Sherl Lyn, being real
Expertise: expertise?..i try..i guess..but to say i'm and expertise..naw
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  pnaihulagurl
Member Since:
5/30/2004
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| so..whoever is subscribed to this..surprise I'm back..sad to say..i shouldn't have made this journal a phase in my life that was so easy to discard..looking back at my old blogs..its not only funny about the things I used to blog about..but how much I've grown from that person or even seeing the development or diminishment of the relationships that seemed so important to me 3 years ago...
Melanie after college:
so..life after college hasn't really changed..haha..I'll be working full time as a pharmacy technician in the fall..even though its mother fuckin corporate..which was good to see before i decided not to apply to pharmacy school...seriously..patients are under a system that they don't see just because they're doctor prescribes a drug..even though the drug isn't covered by your insurance..is about 300x more expensive then a generic..and is just a delayed release of an already existing cheaper drung..its so sad..but..whatever..its all good that I decided not to go to pharmacy school...my plan after a year is to apply for grad school to become a registered dietician..i definitely won't be making as much as a pharmacist..but honestly..food and science..how perfect is that for me?..
anyways..my relationship with baucas has been getting better and better as the months go by...we truly support our individual selfs..and try to remember and maintain the goals we wanted before we ever got together...i know with all the new changes that will happen in the next year and all the "real life" stuff I have to deal with...i'm okae with admitting that my relationship is a major factor when making decisions..but..definitely not the only one...and i don't feel foolish when i say i found my partner...
on to more important things..hehe..my progress in the community these past four years has been very very small..sad to say..i feel a little nuts sometimes..i tell this to boothy all the time..that maybe what I'm trying to push isn't what the community is about..like..its my own private revolution that I'm starting that I think people want..so..with that..for those of you who haven't heard..TAPS has decided to not continue with Alyansa for the next year, and will decide if its best for the two organizations to stay separated next year..with the stagnant number of organizers..there was no way to do both..and it was actually hurting TAPS to maintain a part of Alyansa...I will always have hope for the community in general....but, these past 3 years..it was almost like certain people were pinpointed as being the "political" people...who were supposed to "lead the way"..i dunno..its hard to see a lot of growth in either organizations when we had such a strong presence that didn't allow for the other orgs to grow..but..if you know anyone who wants to join TAPS..give them my number..please!..i'm really working on my people skills..promise..I'm not that intimidating!!
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| so..I just joined myspace..i know..i shouldn't have but I did..anyways..its early...and i'm awake, so I decided to scan through all of my past xangas..man, i was such a different girl when I started this blog..its so weird how i look back on myself and i'm like "what was i thinking!"..seriously more than half of my xangas were about guys (this was before baucas of course)...and when i read them now, I can't even remember which guy I am talking about, unless i explicitly type their name out..i dunno if I changed a lot in these past two years or that my lifestyle has changed, but damn..all the stuff i talk about isn't really important..yeah..i realized that I wrote in the moment so much..like about how i feel..who i'm crushin on..all that crap, as most people do, but i didn't think that would be the core of what i would talk about..so much seems so insignificant now when i look back...that i can't even remember the people i'm talking about in most of my entries..i figured out that i used xanga just for a space to let everyone know how emotionally unstable i am..i dunno..but now..i think i'm pretty balanced that my feelings don't fluctuate on a daily basis as they used to..and my need to blog about my emotions have kinda disappeared..i know most of you will say it's because of baucas..but i dont' think it is..well..partly..so much of what i used to talk about really didn't make any sense..i would say i want this..or that..this guy..no actuatlly that guy..i was so confused..now.. i feel like i'm more comfortable with myself that if i don't know what i want..i'm pretty chill with that..iono.. i know what i want in life..i know what i want in a relationship..and in essense i'm pretty happy with who I am.. so, i apologize for all of those unecessary entries in the past two years that were filled with crap..it won't happen again..
sidenote: look how cute munch is..hehe
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| damn..saturday was a freakin tear fest...freakin da couldn't open her eyes the next morning because of all the crying..haha..i just wanna say how much taus have had a wonderful impact in my life..you guys are true family..this year has been amazing sharing it with all of you wonderful ladies and I can't imagine next year with so many of you graduating...just wanna say how much I love the older girls for still being there for everyone especially kat, jean aileen, alyssa, charina, jill, and michelle montero..you guys are my motivation to continue to be active in this organization and finish my college career knowing I've made an impact on these girls..and to the wonderful deltas..only julliant and I will be left next year..but damn..no one can deny..we are the best class...haha...doing it delta style...meaning 100%..always 24/7 delta is there..rockin hard!..and to all the rest of the youngins..next year is gonna be crazy..the new e-board is freakin awesome and I know we can only get better from here..can i get a PIOP!
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| This xanga entry is dedicated to the one and only aileen......that is all..please comment...you said you would....hi macy!!!
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| So, i'm taking this class Asian Am's in Education..Since the beginning of the class, there's been this dude who i swear is the most ignorant person i've ever met..promise..he continues to claim how Asians uphold the stereotype of the "model minority" based on his experience at UCI..what the fuck!..this mother fucker couldn't even get his mind outside of his own situation to really look at what it is to be called the "model minority"..just because this dude is an engineering major that is filled with mostly whites and asians..then that proves that Asians are the model minority..whack!
So, yesterday we were discussing the issue about Affirmative Action..yes, i understand that there are many pros and cons on this subject..but the dude could not argue based on facts..whenever he spoke it was like he was venting about the "minorities" who took his spot at UCLA and Stanford...and now he's the victim who attends UCI....it was so hard to argue with someone when they are so based on the individual level, rather than looking at Affirmative Action in a way that affects more than the individual, but the system..so..every single comment he made started with.." I DON'T MEAN TO SOUND RACIST,BUT..."...blah blah..then he actually said "WHEN I SEE A BLACK DOCTOR..I JUST HOPE HE DIDN'T GET IN BECAUSE OF AFFIRMATIVE ACTION"...after that i went off..mother fucker keeps saying "i don't mean to sound racist..but"..I was like"..dude..you sound racist..period!..everyone's looking at you because they can't believe the ignorant things you're saying..i'm just calling you out!"....i had to say something..not one person said anything..but then..everyone raised their hand and said "yeah..i don't agree with what he said about..."..and man..i just wish sometimes i didn't seem like the evil Asian girl all the time..ya know..but even though i did call him out in front of the class..i don't take it back..the dude was victimizing himself for going to a UC..are you serious?...damn..its just hard to have a dialogue with someone like that because not only are they not looking at the issue in a broader spectrum then their own life, but all he says is "well, look at UCI.."..he actually thinks that our society favors minorities more than whites..damn..though it may be frustrating to be in that class with him..i don't regret it..being confronted with ignorant people like that just make me stronger in my stances..and overall..i feel good that i not only believe strongly in my opinions..but i finally know how to defend them...feels damn good
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